double up

Not meaning to do so, I'm writing again about 10 minutes or less after that last post. As I read through some of my old ones I read the one before the one after this. Now thinking about it i cannot remember what it said. OK it was about what I had said about experiencing things. Which is what I was trying to keep Patrick from experiencing things the same way I did. And in trying to do so, made everything much worse than it would've been. But at the time, I thought it was the best thing to do. I mean after all, I didn't want to just call or text or facebook message, I wanted to talk to him face to face which I can now see as a big difference for me considering how shy and insecure I used to be. Like I had said though, I tried. I tried and I still do try to be the best I can be around him. I try but he doesn't notice so my next challenge is moving on. Goodnight and sweet dreams.