Move Along

It actually amazes me the happiness I am still able to find in sitting down and reading a book from front to back. Not a book online, I'm talking about good old fashioned pages you physically flip. I just finished "Good In Bed" and I can certainly tell you I will always be a sucker for happy endings. The story is remarkable. I really can't believe it actually because it was over 300 pages and I finished it in a day. Its about loving yourself, and learning how to live your life even when things don't go your way. I would recommend you to read it, only if you like cheesy happy endings though. Well, maybe even if you don't.

After meeting with my friend who has had a boyfriend for over a year now (they started dating the same time me and patrick did) and seeing how happy she is with him and how I wasn't with Patrick, I know I made the right choice. And I know that there is someone out there for me, hopefully with brown hair and blue or green eyes. Its funny, I go out and I meet these guys who love my body and I guess my personality, but let's be real here, mostly my body. And I can tell you now, I have thought of some of them as roles in my life. After hooking up with them asking myself if I could see myself dating them? Take for example, "Elmarto" the first boy who actually pulled back instead of kissing me. Now put him next to Thompson who was aggressively pursuing me, in a way that I might've been attracted to at one point in time, or a certain mood, but not when I had Elmarto on the other side of me. Who one second is lying to me, telling me his name is Elmarto and he's colombian (facebook says otherwise, though I could accuse Elmarto of identity theft!) and resisting me, to being a dirty talker, but not like Thompson, in a way that I found flattering. So obviously I considered him as a potential. Keep in mind, I know this is impractical as he wouldn't even tell me his name and all he wanted to do was have sex. But after reading this book, my hopes soar high and I hope they stay there forever. I hope to always be able to see the bright side in things, I hope to be able to be happy with myself for once, and truly love every part of my body. I love myself, I do. I just also know what I want, and what's good for me, and I think I know what I need to do in order to get that. But I'll just have to keep moving along, boy after boy, walk after walk, and see where my path takes me.