It Goes Around The World

La la la la la. I do NOT want to leave! Who would've ever thought I would be saying that. And not just leave school. I don't want to leave Olivia. OR Stephanie. It seriously SUCKS. I never would've thought I would feel the way I do right now. So... talk about "going around the world", funny thing, I got around my college world pretty well. Not in a slutty slutty way, only slept with two guys. But it was definitely worth it. I had my fair share of make outs as well, including with two gay guys who I can't get enough of, weird? Maybe. Do I care? Nope! My roommate still hasn't learned this whole year to not leave your phone on vibrate on top of her closet... smart. But I do adore her. We did the school's naked event together, drunk as skunks, and I have to say it was one of the most fun things ever.

A few things that bother me right now: drunk people outside, guys not taking hints, guys being over dramatic, guys not being able to be friends, sisters with secretive boyfriends who project the perfect image. Bradley. I honestly don't know why Brad still bothers me. I don't know if it's just because I never had closure or what but it drives me crazy. Like really really crazy. I wish we could at least be friends so he could be reminded of how good we were together. Because I know that unfortunately I do still have feelings for him. But he's with his suitemate and seems semi-happy. He's back to drinking which sucks because he's a mean asshole when he drinks and thats how he ruined what we had after we started being friends again. And like, I'm the one that keeps taking those steps, and generally I don't mind because I want to get what I want. I just don't understand how he can go from one thing to another so fast and so unemotionally. Part of me wants to talk to him, but part of me is absolutely terrified to. But then again, why not? What do I have to lose. Karma's a bitch so I hope this comes back at him eventually. Between the way he's treated me and the way he's treated Steph. I know he's a good guy, I do. I just think he's gotten lost. And I just want to help. :/

Also, boys need to understand my difference between being friendly and flirty. And I need to work on differentiating the two!.