Me, Myself, and I

I am exhausted. Emotionally, physically, everythingcally. I broke up with Patrick on Monday and maybe it's finally setting in. Brad really makes me happy but really makes me confused as well and that's just so frustrating for me. I'm trying to learn to be on my own but it doesn't help that I basically found the man of my dreams before I even broke up with Patrick. Talk about bad timing.

Part of me wants to just let loose and be the stereotypical college girl, and part of me is saying why? That's not you. It's not what you want, it's not good for you, you're going to get hurt. And me being me I listen to the second half. And then there's Steph who is telling me I'm already in another relationship, when I'm not. Brad and I are weird. And I'm somewhat okay with that. Like I said, its frustrating. Frustrating isn't the worst thing in the world though is it?

I have come to learn that society's social norms are extremely rigid and it is so looked down upon if you do anything but. How frustrating ! Actually.

Why can't I just go from one person to another if I feel ready? Why do I need to be "on my own"? What if we both want the same things and soon and get along so well and make each other so happy and understand each other like no one else can? Why wait?