I googled how to have a casual relationship... and I got exactly what I was expecting with a few things I wouldn't have thought of. And I knew from there that I was already doing it wrong. Reaaallly wrong. But I wanted to go with it anyway, so I did. And we already had that one meltdown over new years for that shit but now I'm having another. Because somehow... even though I spent a bunch of hours at his place and slept there and woke up and laid in bed and talked and everything he still makes a point to tell me he went on a date and it went well. As a friend, I want to be happy for him, and I actually am. I get that he's in a shitty situation and isn't necessarily happy where he is and what not. I juuust dont understand our relationship though.. past friends. I get fuck buddies but like the fact that I'm the only person he has to hang out with adds that twisted element into it that just fucks it all up. And I don't like it. I can do casual if thats it but he doesn't go for just that. He calls me pet names and kisses me while I'm sleeping, during my post sex nap.YOU DON'T DO THAT TO FUCK BUDDIES. We haaad sex. It's not like he was going for that. So I think he was going for a relationship but like what the hell do I know. He can just go on his merry way dating every fucking girl.
And then theres my furry four legged boyfriend who I know will never let me down. Dogs are woman's best friend too
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